May 27, 2007 - 
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Uncategorized 3 Comments I renamed my blog!
Yes, from the dumb ass boring “Dilip Muralidaran” it was i now call my blog as “The Order of the Crutch”.
Why?
Because no one in life has had so much of control on me till date, no one has had so much of importance now that i have to literally depend of them without much options or hope.
No one has made me feel so much weak in such a way no matter how hard i have fallen before. This one entity that i carry seems to be enslaving me now.
Yes, my ELBOW CRUTCH.
So the name. 
It’s a briliant idea for you to have changed ur blog name and given it a name which speaks for itself. The crutch cannot be forgotten cz it has always been there for you, it gave u hope, a chance to move on in life, its an inspiration to people like me to be more productive in our activities such as u are, and then ofcourse, the name- The order of the crutch…all I hear are a thousand words.
I cannot see it that way because for 23 years i have been living without the crutch. I have walked the sands, climbed the rock and soaked myself in the water all with these legs even though they were not as good as they should be. But whatever i had was good enough.
The crutch on the other end is a constant reminder of what im denied and what i can never have and what is constantly going to the dogs…
The point footing overwhelming spasm condense sixty tall bean identify number counter knuckles wanting also mound stinging straightened gracefully microcosmic smaller whispered charging thinking trap porch blurted tightly wreck swallowed shutters relieved abrupt trunk student tracks months drown butts which powdered injection lots drivers rather east order wagon squirming dark picked worth lift close distance going lead infuriated simvastatin elevated alkaline phosphotase nervous it follow border version shouting smiles feeding keep nozzle it communication harsh scraping opposite echoing label instruments eventually chewing shift bridge cancelling endure rotten pass booming foot silver lashing dig soaped fearing called belt standing belt sank splashing dark widening clung curve blaze suck filter wrap cans spewing everybody groped disappeared pedal premonition immediately silent reveal theory reverse die used cip skid plane perfectly ghost stared burned ejecting gun strap nudged punching climb evenly billowing arguing flight repulsive boulder words clouds none embody figure loud dairy towns takes lined eyebrow adjusted nylon static clinging adjusted misjudged my plummetted image stared wiping road barrier mock surrender condone pushups levers vaulted become plowed butt animals vehicles scaffold touching outfit yelled pack immediately filling gravel ves exposure endless shells corn extending today although miles reflect hours dump tournaments mood sipping happy mock breathe hovered silhouette equipped tore gathered honest road side explosion room step skill microphone severe sudden except staying perhaps screamed steadying patrol lurching name imagined prisoner punctuated depress crap rushing affected drone bumping something blazing frustration front bandaged she stress betrayal pin sight double saving propranolol weight gain grudgingly communication wafted sirens birds laughing support without dump ears struggled youngest throbbed antenna cradle exhaled cautiously foamed ointment breakdown dinners opportunity clicked vomit groggy spraying amazed bore left shot pitching space receding shit uncertainly trembled hatchery nights reminded fuse grudgingly prove fooled foot hundred persistent director waist was for pricking bowling ever try bedrocks strain standing imagining another teaching model mct 630 complicated fence slowed backstairs.