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4 Comments A Miserable fucking existence!
I was driving home from work, to my cousins place to have dinner with her before i leave for delhi the next day morning. She is here from the USA on a vacation and going back soon. I drove through habibullah road and just as i reach the junction at usman road i see a furry cute little creature run across the road. I know what i saw, a cute grey striped kitten. “how cute” i think and before i knew it there were 3 stray dogs behind it.
The kitten leaped and caught a thin branch near the compound wall of a house. The branch snapped and the kitten swung like spiderman and fell across the road near the road behind the ramp where Vishwak solutions office is. The dogs gave chase, i did. Accelerated the bike to 70, skid hard to my left and stopped and got off the bike. Sharp searing pain on my right hip. I need the crutch. Unstrapped my crutch off my bike and before i knew it i saw two dogs biting into the kittens backbone. Fuck the crutch, i crawled like a baby on the road and yelled at the top of my voice and the dogs backed off a foot.
Went close and saw dog saliva all over the cats fur, it was wet and sticky. No blood but i know the damage was done. The cat had its mouth wide open. Having raised more than 50 cats in my school days i know a cat does not live for long when it has a permanently open mouth and no noise from its mouth. Its the pain of dying, i can see it.
I picked up the kitten carelessly and it ferociously bit my thumb and i bled. I slowly unhooked the tooth of the kitten from my thumb slowly. I placed the kitten on my bike and drove far away from the incident. Laid the kitten to rest near a roadside temples trash dump. I went, had dinner with cousin, drove back at 11 pm on the way back home. The kitten was dead.
I’m a cat person, i don’t really hate dogs but i do now much since this moment. I know it sounds irrational but i cant help it.
It would have made a difference if i had gotten off my bike 5 seconds earlier, i did not. “The Order of the Crutch” it indeed fucking was.
These are the times i hate my miserable fucking existence. Life is not worth living with this shit. Its all so pointless. The crutch makes all the difference. If not for this crutch, that kitten would have lived to see the daylight. Fuck this, i’ve had enough.
